OneFootball
OneFootball·22 April 2021
OneFootball
OneFootball·22 April 2021
England and Manchester United man Jesse Lingard has opened up on the extent of his mental health struggles in a revealing interview with new entertainment show Presenting.
Lingard has enjoyed an incredible second half of the season, bagging nine goals and three assists in 10 Premier League appearances for West Ham since joining the club in January.
You can watch the entire interview here:
âWhen youâre young, seeing your mum going through something like that, you donât understand it logically, you donât know what sheâs going through.
âSheâd say âIâm depressed, Iâm depressedâ but me, as a kid, you donât know what that means.
âYouâre just going out, playing out, playing football, doing your thing, but mum was in bed most of the time, curtains closed, sheâs going through it. This is when I was young, like 12.â
âIt feels like youâre not the same person, I feel like I wasnât Jesse Lingard. Even in football matches, I felt like the game was just passing me by, like I just didnât want to be there â it was crazy.
âI could see myself playing but watching the game back I just think thatâs not me, thatâs not how I play. You go from the World Cup to some performances Iâve seen myself playing and something needed to change.
âI opened up to United and told them what I was going through, what my mum was going through and theyâre always there to help. Iâve had doctors that have helped which has been brilliant and during the lockdown I got my head togetherâ.
âLockdown has kind of transitioned me in a way. I watch my old games back and watch the World Cup games back and the old games I used to play and I think, âyeah thatâs the real Jesse Lingardâ. The time that I had going a couple seasons back or last season, it just wasnât me at all and you can see that.
âMy brother who lives with me, he could see that and heâs got a video of me literally laying on the couch and Iâm just staring for 3 minutes into thin air and heâs just thinking, âWhat is he going through? Heâs got the weight of the world on his shouldersâ
âWhen I finally opened up and everyone understood it was like, âOh thatâs whyâ, so now itâs just me getting my head back together, football and helping my mum and I donât really have time for anything else really.â
âI was going into games happy sitting on the bench and thatâs not me. My mind wasnât there, I wasnât focused at all. I was thinking about other things and obviously bottling it all up trying to play football, youâre tense, youâre stressed and you canât do it.â
âThereâs some days where I used to have a game at 8 oâclock and weâd go to the hotel in the afternoon, Iâd sleep form 2-4, shut my curtains in the dark and then wake up in the dark and you donât get any sunlight. So I was advised by the doctors, as soon as you get up in the morning, jump out of bed, open the curtains and even the little things can really change your attitude.
âI feel like in life you go through difficulties, you go through stages of lows and highs, but I feel like youâve gotta get through the lows, grind it out and you see the light at the end of the tunnel
âThatâs why I did open up, I want to change peopleâs lives and inspire others to start opening up, because Iâve been through it and I know what itâs like to bottle things up, so if I can pass on the information to anyone whoâs going through mental health issues, itâll make me smile.â